Friday, January 6, 2012, 12:50 AM
back at this space like finally after almost half a year??
within a blink, it's already 6th day of 2012.
the weight load on my shoulders are getting even more & more heavier, till i
can't barely breathe.
stress, tense up, insecure, pessimistic feelings are all back to haunt me.
i am smiling, but close to tears. Always trying to put a strong side of me in front
of others, but only some will know all this times i'm just pretending, making me crazy.
1 whole entire year wasted, the reality and society outside had really gave me a big slap.
What's the fucking point being regret now right? But from this moment onwards, i
will try to do what i can to achieve the best results and get into my ideal poly course.
Regardless of how many classes i have to attend, midnight oil i need to burn at night, tons
of ten years series i have to complete. I promise, i will give in all my best for this one last time.
sometimes i really wish to fall into a deep sleep and never wake up anymore..